Unstable

super duper asli sangat ga jelas..
Kadang merasa bisa ninggalin, kadang ngerasa butuh banget..
terserah mau mengartikan apa tentang ini..

Terlalu banyak pilihan, terlalu banyak pertimbangan..

Like a stupid person in this situation
If I'm a spectator, I'll say "She is a fool girl . She let her self fall in the same hole"
yes, I'm
I let my self
I know the risk, I know how is the ending
but... still walk on this way..

I know what should I do, but I don't know how to start it
"you have to do it as quickly as possible before it make you more depressed"
the other side said
"Don't do that. just let it flow and it will give you the better way"
confused to the max

never mind.
I don't want to know, I don't want to care..
but, in fact, I can't

just watch although it's not a movie
hopefully, it will end happily :)

#to be continued